On Tuesday Ryan and I ventured through a Minnesota snow storm 80 miles one way to see our IVF doctor. We made it safe and sound, both had blood draws taken right away, I peed in a cup to make sure I wasn't pregnant already and then waited to see Dr. Corfman to have a Sonohysterogram done. Blood work was taken for both of us to make sure we didn't have any infectious diseases and for me to check my kidneys, liver and white blood cells to make sure it would be safe for me to start Metformin.
A Sonohysterogram is a procedure done where they inject a sterile saline into the cavity of my uterus to enlarge it. The saline outlines the endometrium (lining of my uterus) and allows for easy visualization and measurement. It also is used to identify any polyps or masses within my uterus. Basically they insert a catheter into my uterus that contains the fluid and also insert a vaginal ultrasound to be able to see what they are doing. So there we sat, me half naked with the sheet draped over me in a cold sweat of nerves and Ryan sitting there watching YouTube clips of the movie Grumpy Old Men. Man he is such a goof and makes me laugh at how know matter how many times he watches that movie he dies of laughter every time. I had an odd sense of nerves for this procedure, its all to familiar to me having it done multiple times before, but for some reason I just was concerned that they would find something. A polpy like they have before, twice, or a fear of the mild DNC I had done in May last year would lead to scar tissue or some rare thing. A fear of not being able to go through with IVF.
Ryan and I found out early on not only do we have fertility issues on Ryan's side due to his paralysis but also on my side due to my Polycystic Ovary Syndrome. I had a mild DNC performed due to a never ending cycle of bleeding, like month after month after month. Now some people may think Im going way to overboard with the oversharing department but oh well, fertility issues are more common these days and its ok to talk about them. The DNC did the trick and I was feeling like a normal human being again.
Dr. Corfman made his way to our room and gave me instant peace in saying I had nothing to worry about. Our time with Mayo Clinic had put such a bad taste in my mouth for IVF and basically anyone being up in my lady parts. I swear my lady parts are traumatized for all the crap they have gone through over the years. Dr. Corfman is AWESOME!! Man this doctor knows his stuff and is so incredibly gentle. As he put it himself God didn't give him hair on his head but he gave him gentle hands. He did the procedure with out any issues, I had zero discomfort and we got the all clear. Healthy uterus, healthy ovaries and no polyps!! The day before I had to start an antibiotic to prevent infection from happening with the solution they put inside of me and was happy that I could stop taking it since my procedure went well. The antibiotic was making me pretty sick and I wasn't able to eat much for those two days I was on it. I was able to ask Dr. Corfman a lot about the egg retrieval and embryo transfer, discuss things that went wrong at Mayo and things that gave me a lot of pain and he really gave me a sense of peace that we wouldn't have those issues this go around with him. So all around a good report!!
Tomorrow I will start Metformin, this is a common medication prescribed for women with PCOS. I will only be on this medication temporarily prior to my transfer. Basically its to help regulate my insulin, hormones and hopefully prevent my body from forming polyps. Ryan and I will venture back up in February for our injection class to learn once again how to give myself all the lovely hormone injections and then to go over my medication outline. So basically we begin the countdown to the start of my ovary stimulation end of February.
With our initial post about the start of this journey to baby buck or fingers crossed babies, we received an outpouring of love from all of our family, friends and followers. I can not thank you enough for all of the prayers and support. I feel God's love around us and in this journey and that brings me a sense of peace and comfort. Although I feel peace I still have fear. Fear in this matter comes from the fear of hearing those words of you can't have children or fear of going through this process and not getting pregnant, fear of what the hell do we do if that happens. If we don't become parents then what does our life have in store for us. Ryan tells me to not think negative, we have to stay positive and we don't need to go down that road until we cross it, if that happens. He's right I need to stay positive but I also need to get these thoughts out. I realize God has full control over this situation and that this fear I have is just the devils way of creeping in. I know there are others out there who can relate to me on this and my hope is that maybe by expressing my thoughts the support will come where I need it. Thank you thank you for all of the love!! Looking forward to February!