Here we are the last day of 2016 and boy what a year it was. Between hang gliding, trips to Mexico, Colorado and Canada bear hunting, Team Buck had an adventurous year to say the least. Like most individuals the end of the year brings a time of reminiscing of events that happened throughout the year, a time to reflect on another year gone and a time to bring on the discussion of New Years resolutions. These last few days have brought an internal struggle I have been battling with and it made me realize that my New Years resolutions will be a little different then what I had expected. Like most individuals I will have the resolution to be healthier. Im always striving to improve my physical self and have many goals in mind when it comes to starting another year of crossfit. For many people their physical health becomes more of a priority at the start of a new year but how often do we forget about our mental health.
I recently started working one on one with one of my crossfit coaches in order to imporve on skills, stregnth and certain lifts, all physical. But what I never expected was for my coach to work on my mental health, to retrain the way I think and perceive myself. To work on getting rid of the negative thoughts I have and to be more positive. I am incredibly hard on myself especially when it comes to crossfit. I tend to compare myself to others progess and worry about how people perceive me. I have a hard time forgiving myself for my actions in the past and tend to think that Im undeserving of people's love and care for me. I can think of many more things to say that I internally struggle with about myself but I will save that for another blog post. Im hoping there are a few people out there that can relate to me on this. Part of my New Years resolution will be more focused on the internal change versus the external change. To not worry so much about how someone perceives me and to stop comparing myself to others. To let go of the things I have done in the past, things that I'm not so proud of that I contiue to let define me. To break free of those burdens that I let have a hold on me. Im hoping through out this journey it will spark some blog posts for me and that I might be able to help someone who may be struggling with the same thing. I already have a list in mind of ideas to blog about and getting back to what started this whole blog idea and thats my marriage to Ryan. Getting back to being more open and honest about our life, our struggles and our adventures because there is beauty in the struggle. God doesnt give us anything we cant handle and with him by our side we will be sure to tackle whatever comes our way.
2017 will be sure to start with a new adventure for us, but you will have to wait to hear about it until then. You can count on it that we will be blogging about this one though. I look forward to a new year, new chapter, new beginning, a fresh start! I hope that your New Years resolution might be something that isnt so typical, maybe its something that will help push you outside your comfort zone to help push you to become a better version of yourself.
As for Team Buck we will be snuggling at home tonight curled up on the couch together watching a movie. Its nothing fancy but I wouldnt have it any other way. I get to end an begin the year with my best friend and the love of my life by my side and that folks makes my heart incredibly happy! Happy New Year to all and thank you for following along with us on our journey! BRING IT 2017!!