Here we are the last day of 2016 and boy what a year it was. Between hang gliding, trips to Mexico, Colorado and Canada bear hunting, Team Buck had an adventurous year to say the least. Like most individuals the end of the year brings a time of reminiscing of events that happened throughout the year, a time to reflect on another year gone and a time to bring on the discussion of New Years resolutions. These last few days have brought an internal struggle I have been battling with and it made me realize that my New Years resolutions will be a little different then what I had expected. Like most individuals I will have the resolution to be healthier. Im always striving to improve my physical self and have many goals in mind when it comes to starting another year of crossfit. For many people their physical health becomes more of a priority at the start of a new year but how often do we forget about our mental health.
I recently started working one on one with one of my crossfit coaches in order to imporve on skills, stregnth and certain lifts, all physical. But what I never expected was for my coach to work on my mental health, to retrain the way I think and perceive myself. To work on getting rid of the negative thoughts I have and to be more positive. I am incredibly hard on myself especially when it comes to crossfit. I tend to compare myself to others progess and worry about how people perceive me. I have a hard time forgiving myself for my actions in the past and tend to think that Im undeserving of people's love and care for me. I can think of many more things to say that I internally struggle with about myself but I will save that for another blog post. Im hoping there are a few people out there that can relate to me on this. Part of my New Years resolution will be more focused on the internal change versus the external change. To not worry so much about how someone perceives me and to stop comparing myself to others. To let go of the things I have done in the past, things that I'm not so proud of that I contiue to let define me. To break free of those burdens that I let have a hold on me. Im hoping through out this journey it will spark some blog posts for me and that I might be able to help someone who may be struggling with the same thing. I already have a list in mind of ideas to blog about and getting back to what started this whole blog idea and thats my marriage to Ryan. Getting back to being more open and honest about our life, our struggles and our adventures because there is beauty in the struggle. God doesnt give us anything we cant handle and with him by our side we will be sure to tackle whatever comes our way.
2017 will be sure to start with a new adventure for us, but you will have to wait to hear about it until then. You can count on it that we will be blogging about this one though. I look forward to a new year, new chapter, new beginning, a fresh start! I hope that your New Years resolution might be something that isnt so typical, maybe its something that will help push you outside your comfort zone to help push you to become a better version of yourself.
As for Team Buck we will be snuggling at home tonight curled up on the couch together watching a movie. Its nothing fancy but I wouldnt have it any other way. I get to end an begin the year with my best friend and the love of my life by my side and that folks makes my heart incredibly happy! Happy New Year to all and thank you for following along with us on our journey! BRING IT 2017!!
Can you believe it, Christmas is here! I absolutely love this holiday and celebrating the birth of God's son. So much of the Christmas season reminds me of my grandparents, their traditions and how we as a family still carry on those same traditions today. My scandinavian heritage comes out in full swing and I cant help but feel we are making my grandparents proud. From lefsa, to lutefisk, swedish meatballs, and potato sausage, my Christmas Eve feast is one we take pretty serious. Enjoying this wonderful meal at one big table that seems to get longer as our family grows and to finally reading the story of Jesus's birth right from the bible before opening gifts.
As a child for both Ryan and I, Christmas was always celebrated at our grandparent's farm. Eventually the location of both our Christmas celebrations got changed but one thing always stayed the same, we were surrounded by all of our loved ones. Thats the funny thing about traditions you either love them or you hate them. I personally love them and hope to be able to teach our future children our family traditions and be able to start some traditions of our own. Whatever way you are celebrating this Christmas season we hope you are surrounded by your loved ones, good food and hopefully a tradition or two! Our faith in God is truely the reason Ryan and I have found happiness in each other and our life together! We pray that each and everyone of you will feel God's love during this Christmas season, He truely is the reason for the season!
Ryan and Lauren Buck
Snow, Snow, Snow, yes we have snow! I cant help but think of the song Snow in the movie White Christmas everytime it snows. If only I could sing it the way Bing Crosby, Danny Kaye and Rosemary Clooney did on the train on there way to Vermont. Yes its a beautiful winter wonderland out there and this girl is pretty happy to finally having it look a lot like Christmas outside. Ryan on the other hand is dreading another Minnesota winter. Getting around in a wheelchair can defintely be difficult at times but toss in the snow and it can make getting around even more interesting. Plus the brutal winter temperatures can be pretty harsh for Ryan this time of year. Literally as I sit here typing Ryan is asking if Im telling all of our readers how much I love the snow and how much he despises it or as I should put it correctly how much he despises trying to get around in it. The season of wearing long underwear hits sometimes even in the months of Sepetember and can last up to the month of May. With poor circulation and lack of feeling on his lower half Ryan defintley has to watch his skin when going outside. Dont think he wil be using our seat heaters in our vehicles, a skin burn can easily happen with out Ryan knowing it, even through his clothes. For me having a spouse in a wheelchair winter begins the season of continuous wheelchair tracks and sand on our hard wood floors. Needless to say I can always tell where Ryan has been in our house.
Two Saturdays ago when it snowed Ryan went out in the moring to shovel what he could of the driveway, I was in the house doing some cooking. Soon enough he came back inside for me to hear all about how he got stuck at the end of the driveway. He decided to shovel a path down to our mailbox and when he turned around to come back up the driveway his wheels started to spin out on the snow. Fifteen mintues later he finally made it back up the driveway. I couldnt help but laugh as he told the story and even more so as he told me how many people drove by and just waved at him. It may sound mean as I sit here and still contiue to laugh at him getting stuck but if you know Ryan he really has a flare when telling his stories and has a good sense of humor about life in a wheelchair. Last year on December 31st he got backed into by a pickup and pushed into the street, luckily he didnt get hurt and it defintely scared the crap out of him, but he made sure to joke about how he hoped it wasnt a sign of how the year 2016 would go. The stories could go on and on about the adventures of Ryan in his wheelchair and Im sure another Minnesota winter will bring us plenty of more stories to share along the way, but thankfully I have a husband who has a good sense of humor about all of it. You never know maybe this winter will be about trying something new and finding ways to enjoy winters in Minnesota in a wheelchair. Whatever may happen it will be an adventure and Im sure there will be a few laughs along the way! So for those of you living in this state, stay safe this winter and enjoy the beauty of another Minnesota winter. Since Ryan wasnt to keen on going out in the negative temps to have his picture taken enjoy a few my mother has captured so far this winter!
Amazing how its literally been almost a month since our last blog post and that the month of Novemeber flew by. Harvest has since come and gone and our time has been consumed with deer hunting, time reconnecting with each other and family gatherings now that the holidays are upon us. I had many people ask questions about how Ryan farms, before I get into that heres a little back ground on my hubby and his passion for farming.
Growing up Ryan's grandparents farmed and also his uncle. In 1993 Ryan's grandparents retired from farming and his uncle started running the land. As Ryan got older he helped his Uncle in the field and at the age of 23 started renting some farm land of his own. Ryan was also currently working in HVAC until June of 2007, he left heating and air conditioning to work for his current employer to sell crop insurance. Unfortantely after Ryan's accident the land lord decided to no longer rent the farm land to Ryan because he was now paralyzed, stating that he no longer would be able to do it. Hard words for someone to hear when his life just brutually got turned upside down and now his passion was being taken away from him because of something he had no control of. When life got hard, it became even harder for Ryan, but that didnt stop him from pursuing his dreams and goals of farming. It also didnt stop him from proving his doctors wrong who said he would never be able to farm again.
Speed ahead to the present date and you'll find my hubby farming with my family, the Carlsons. You'll also find him farming the land that we have been able to rent ourselves, going on three years now. Not many think that farming is possible for Ryan since he is in a wheelchair but it most defintely is with a few minor tweaks and adjustments.
Ryan drives grain cart and also does tillage work. Most new farm machinery these days pretty much drives themselves and is able to operate by hands. Ryan had handles made that attaches to the brake so he is able to use the brake with his hands. He also has a video camera mounted onto the grain cart so he can watch on the monitor in the cab to see how full the cart is and also to see while dumping on the go. There also is a separate camera mounted on the back of the grain cart so Ryan can see if there is traffice behind him. He has this since its harder for Ryan to turn his head and body around.
Now the question most are thinking is how does Ryan get in and out of the tractor. For a while we used the method of literlly my uncle piggy backing Ryan and getting him in and out of the tractor that way. Not the safest method for both people but it got the job done. Eventualy my dad came up with the idea of mounting a chair onto our fork lift so we could raise Ryan up. The door is wide enough on our tractors that they can bring Ryan right up into the cab and he is able to trasnfer onto the buddy seat and slide onto the driver's seat. They do have fancy lifts that mount onto the outside of farm machinery, but those lifts are also very spendy. Hopefully in the future we will be able to have lifts like this but for right now our make shift lift is doable. Once Ryan is in the tractor he is pretty much good to go and can be in there all day. Obviously if there is a problem he cant get out so he is at the mercy of others and if there were to ever be a fire in his tractor, well like he said he would get out, when theres a will theres a way.
Ryan has never let his paralysis stop him from doing what he loves most and thats farming. This man LOVES to be in a tractor and is happiest on the farm! He is proof the if you want something bad enough you wont let anything stop you from getting it. In the midst of the busy harvest season the only video we got of Ryan getting out of the tractor was at night, so check it out at youtu.be/n1CiuDKtPJU
Also enjoy some of the photos my mother captured of the 2016 harvest, and few old pictures of Ryan farming prior to his accident.